my nails looks so darn clean after shower!!!!
tired after skating the night out and being kinda unwell for a few days in a row; my back ache is killing me sooner or later
i have still yet to find out the bloody reason but a fact is i have a damn old physical; told by Summer
well seems like getting sick and aches every now and then is a daily stuff for me until its like i have this constant sick look on my face everyday
people are telling me to put make up already; how sad can that be
well Athletics days were only the days i looked radiant and healthy i guess
and i had a damn damn fulfilling life? at least i had smth to look forward and work towards to
i even had my sec school buddies by my side
well everything crashed when i stopped running and you left too
well happiness always doesnt last la; the sweeter it is, the shorter it will last and they was partially my faults too so i can only blame myself yea

until now its still occassionally coming back; the thoughts of running again
about you, its over since i entered poly; like finally after 1 year plus of misery cause it was a new life for me and i was away from everyone and everything; seemingly alone in the west for a new start?
well the impact is still there, but it doesnt really matter already just that i have to be more able to trust again?

last week went shopping with Rachel and bought a tube top and a dress from Miss Selfedge or whatever it is spelt. love them =)
yday went Suntec with unGLAMs and i also found many clothes i like; so yea maybe im getting back to buying clothes based on what i really like; like finally
finally i get this feeling back after so long ehh? good sign i guess; well need to save up already
who knows it might fade off again and i will still remain the normal self i am since i entered poly LOL
Rachel was really sweet to kept consoling me and irritated about the fact i am so affected by those words that made me almost zero confidence
Jolene too
thanks ah girls; well i will try to change that attitude yea; but some facts are still unchangeable i guess

well wonder if it was a good day yesterday or a bad one.
too tired to think also already; just like what Imran told me - wait and slowly see ba, things will be back to normal soon
i really do hope so cause i dont like the way things are now;
pleasant things+not-so-pleasant ones

well my Acid toe is still kinda not there, damn sians
but will try my best ba and know where my limit is; since my body really cannot tahan already
for future sakes LOL
and those banging of walls really arggg man cause its so loud and embarrassing
its not painful but its just too loud; maybe my blades will feel pain? LOL
lucky i have my shi fu *Jeremy to help me PATIENTLY! =)
well maybe its time for more basics trainings soon...
main reason:
few injuries from the banging into people while skating; Shi fu and a random freshie
cant belived i flew back twice la
im too noob to even hold my foot.

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