its so hard to maintain a simple conversation with you now.
i tried, but i just cant
although i repeated to myself many many times it was your special day yesterday
i still walked away
i just dont know how to voice out thats why i walk away but to you im just being STURBORN
yea i am but i have my reasons to insist on some stuffs?
must it happen again like sec 4 when my form teacher had to call her up to inform you im damn affected by the family then you get it?
it was so embarrassing cause an outsider had to come in between to settle our own stuffs; and it was an outsider who found out smth was wrong
if she didnt call you all to discuss, if she didnt notice smth was wrong, if she didnt ask my buddies, if she didnt....
things might not be like this already?
she knows and understands the way i am, esp after that
but you just choose to think im damn indifferent to a lot of things no matter how much she explains to you
i dont understand why you choose to spend them on useless stuffs like stocks but not on us?
she told me just to take it as you are bankrupt; yea i heed her advice but this time its school stuffs
so what if you tell me now to go?
i've already decided not to already, the motivation and hope is just not there already
and you are blaming me for being rebellious
yea i am rebellious, but so?
if i agree again and get my hopes all high up, are you gonna thrash it all down again?
or vent it all out on her?
i know you love and care for me like her; but i just cant understand
our communication seriously has problems and im not sure how long more it will last; after you fly off again?
well we already drifted, you will prefer to talk to sis since she is more understanding and caring
yea im sad but what can i do? its my own fault for not being able to be a better daughter
later i have FMAH revision for those going for retest and i have no mood to study already
argggg....
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