when all you see is just a pale/sick looking face
with eyebags adding on to the sickness
will you will wish to look at yourself in the mirror?
well after so long, i've sorta get used to this face in the mirror; i know nothing will change it and it will most probably get worst only. come to think of it, i used to even be so scared of the mirror i closed every single mirror door in my house;at least now im beinning to accept it more =)mum said make ups are meant for people like me, to cover up our sick looking faces. Yea i agree, looking at the photos i had make up on during my practical and those i dont have, i definitely dont look that sick. but its just a mask, once i remove it its still there, so whats the point?well its somehow its time i have to start learning to put some make up anyways, presentations and work will need it, but i have manage to find suitable ones? since my face gets allergies at almost the mildest things.if im healthier, the money i spent on seeing doctors and stuffs could actually buy me so many things!!! the shortness of breathe is coming back; esp when im feeling angry or sad. back of my palm gets cold whenever it happens. i dont even know what the hell is wrong and my mum said to stop skating in case i die a sudden death, how consoling when i told her to ask her for a solution. the main point is to get me to quit skates =.=... well it doesnt matter ba, i dont want to end up having to see doctors and spending those money for this kinda useless shit and hear them talk so much but in the end there's no solutions. well at least im alive with 4 workable limbs =)so i shall do those sports i can do more before its too late.
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