Project deadlines are slowly coming.feel so rushed; everyone is.
the world is so real; beginning to accept it now
well at least it pushes me to what i want to do more
just cause i talk more straight forward; i dont know how to "suck up"
i dont think likewise; i dont know how to express; i dont look like im trying; i dont look like im affected; i dont seem to be serious about anything; i dont seem to have any similarities; i have no talents; i have a lousy temper;...
well whatever it is; im sick of trying already
i heeded the advice 2+ years back and tried; it went better, almost successful that no one could see the hidden flaws
now its coming back at one go and i realize the differences were never gone just well kept.
since young treatments were already different, i complaint how unfair i felt but they were never taken seriously.
in order to help your have better relationships i have to be the middleman sometimes to do "bad" deeds; and all in all the years add up and all the debts are counted on to me now im seem as the baddie to your
ahh no difference; i shall just be cold just like i used to then
now everyone's grown up; everyone has their own thinkings; that makes me have no power left at all; no energy to even argue
your have louder voice; bigger strength; stronger support
i only have myself
why bother making my body feel haywired for stupid useless stuffs
21; stable job; i want an Independent life
no matter how hard i will get it.
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Like Nobody's Watching
Project deadlines are slowly coming.