2nd day of school only and it just feel so fucked up go to school, just cause of what happened; so called classifications i deemed?
we are the losers i guesss, so we shall just stick together as losers
what ever shit talked behind out backs arent allowed to be heard well then fuck up and stop saying speak up la
what is the freaking use?
say le do things le then tell us to choose
PLEASE ISNT IT ALREADY DECIDED?! we only got our share of bitching behind
oh well a level lower, so sorrrry uh
oh well im insensible and childish; too bad its my blog

im so sorry mum, you wasted your effort and i didnt listen to you either
as usual always thinking trying hard to do something as long as is friends and family will be happy
you warned me so many freaking times when i was having strong mood swings at home and being moody but i still didnt heed your advice
i even argued you for being selfish and not understanding
but i guessss you were right, as usual
you and daddy were always right about trust

i didnt know we or maybe i was so calculative to you when things go totally so damn seriously wrong and i couldnt hold it any longer that
'non existence' debts had to be settled clearly; by someone else
oh well i shouldnt have right, mummy, i should have just LISTENED to you
if it had to be settled clearly then well i wouldnt have bothered searching for it in the first place
fine, i have extra cash for books then

i hate going to school, hate seeing everyone having to wonder who are those seeing us with hidden thoughts, looking at us with disagreeing thoughts
i hate having to see those people being nice but in the end they are just pretending
well maybe i should love it uh
trying to be helpful but in the end the result is still that
well what can we do? we could only stick together and get our own ways till school ends
at least im not alone ehhh : )

apologetic and guilt though the deeds but well at least there was still that tiny winy bit of apologetic and guilt, at least to some of us, will feeel ahhhh nevermind just forget it.

well maybe im the fucked up one
who cares we are still classified and we AINT there, i believe it was MUCH MUCH PLEASANT for TALENTED PEOPLE as outing, can settled easier ma right!
we were too either busy working, slacking, or well i was enjoying in JAPAN
i knew my feelings were right when i returned that something major had taken place
but i didnt know it was so fucked up and no one bothered to GIVE A FUCKING CLUE
even when we asked,
FRIENDS
oh no CLASSMATES : )

i love you all so so much
HA. does this sound all right??

What for being accomodating?! who will fucking care and try to change even if you emphasized many many fucking times? you just waste your saliva trying to REMIND something that wont be bothered
what for keep blaming yourself everything is cause of yourself, it only makes the other feel better and yourself crying blaming and even hurting yourself for the misery
what for what freaking for?!
yea my mum is right, be selfish, FUCKING SELFISH BRATS
learn from them too, go for what is best for the sake of what i dont know, MARKS?!
oh yea MARKS
HA HA HA HA

well im a hypocrite too; cause being forgetful is just a nicer word to replace it
who isnt?! now i know

fucked up.
i have never met things like this and had never felt so DISAPPOINTED and ANGER to people with no blood relations.
what a nice environment i am studying in huh, after so long of telling myself it will be over
it got so much WORST
HA well nvm, i rmb my mum saying once the strings are cut off there will be no more feelings maybe just anger
i dont think i have a class then

this is world aint it? world of the human minds
only the PERFECT minds and mouths wins and gets the say in whatever fuck

those trying to help in the big picture suffers well, someone has to
since people cant ACCOMODATE others, due to HIGHLY reasons?
i guess so

backaches dont hinder me from distressing please : ]