got back BLAW today
oh well i failed, i was damn damn sians cause i thought maybe BLAW could pass?
hais, means other 4 sure fail le
im so scared
cause i think will be kicked out of SP lol
oh yea, i need go for retest
if i still cant pass after retest, i will be so hell demoralized
i think i will quit school

nail painting session for my dear unGLAMs tomorrow
"orders" from Sai, Mer and Jol....
woots after so long i can paint for them again
shun bian brush up on my skills woots....
but my Skinfood Nailpolishes 3/4 of them gone liaos
left 5 only i guess bo lui buy liaos, please sponsor
i give freee service as usual!
haha

well i have got a phone now!!!
like finally after 3 loooong days
all thanks to Jason cause he was able to lend me his old Sony Ericsson.
shall save up then get a new mobile soon
woots~

while walking down the SB slope with unGLAMs to FC3
i saw kids running, jumping, doing all sorts of athletics related activities at the school's track
im so envious
i dont know man, it just seems so distant
to see them run so carefreely on the red track
i can still rmb what those signs and markings meant on the red painted mat
those tough training days
its been so long already but not sure....
feels like nothing seems to be able to take over it
well shall stop thinking about the impossible; cant even do simple sports, what for
its so frustrating sometimes thinking why 5 of us im the only one not running anymore
why am i only one out of it, why why why?
when things were going so smoothly, improving
it crashed down suddenly; well its always unfair in life
now there will be no longer be photos of us holding throphies and smiling in sweat together;
no longer has the fair girl in short hair in btw
only the rest tanned and in pony tails
no more Oreo.......

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why is it that some people just loves to be 3rd parties to married people
isnt it weird and disgusting?
breaking up families and stuffs, is it really smth worth tarnishing your reputation for as enjoyment
making people's life complicated or maybe drama-mama
reasons ranging from money, status and some due to their so called true love but met too late
what the hell excuses; one should know their limitations shouldnt they?
ya those stuffs may have happened for a short period of time but the impact left can be damn long and sometimes even onto other innocent parties
and those men who chose them over their own wives or families arent any better
the mess you created due to your own pleasures are just so so so not needed
why dont you think for those who truely loves you? why only think about yourself?
just fucking stupid
why can you all be so good and gentlemen to the women you married before marriage and changed after that?
imagine you were in the shoes of those pitiful victims
well in this modern time, this kinda situation can be rotated too, women the bastards and men the pitiful victims
whatever way it is, those who went astray are just unforgiveable

well we share the same name just that mine isnt in the birth cert while yours is
you are the reason why my mum didnt want my dad to put it into my IC
lucky its all over already; ard 16 years?
im so glad we won, you know?
when i saw your fucked up expression 2 years back i was so delighted
and it also meant that it is over forever
oh well but it left an impact already

sometimes i wish you tell me lesser stuffs; but i am glad you shared with me cause it shows you trusted me
but those things never fail to leave a -ve impact
one good example is this;
maybe there can never be long lasting trust between fellow human beings

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At this very moment im wondering why i have such a STUPID Buddy
none other that JOLENE the TOOT
why? ask her yourself
LOL

well helped out Louisa/Sai for her Rotaract Club activity yday at ECP
some family day game booths?
sucked!! we all think it SUCKED!
kena CONNED twice already
last time Environmental Club now this
what the?
told Sai that i will NEVER ever join such things already
so please dont invite me next time already, can date me to other stuffs
LOL
only pleasant thing was the kids i guess
damn cute la most of them
mended the GOLF booth with Summer and it was hell crowded
never ending queues can
i dont know why
helped until PENG, no energy left
left earlier for other things
well i found another way to the other end of ECP from PP =)
anyhow walked my way out cause couldnt see the stupid shutter bus coming and i ended up nicely at PP
woots, song bo new route

well i suddenly feel like cuttig my hair back to short
those in my sec school days will know roughly why
i guess since i always cut hair for almost same reasons
lol
but not sureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
shit gayness

1111

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Surprise failed... cause i suck at making surprises but well thankful to those who helped =)
Movied Penelop with Jolene, ShiYing, Jabez, Timothy and Medwin, not bad show
male lead Shuai sia LOL...
went back to SP with cake and prepared the surprise with Alvin they all =)
then back to skating.
Supper at JE with Jolene and Jeremy cause he wanted the cake too
recently skating has been smth very demoralising
lets go back to normal trainings like before MST
more funnnn i guess

Eugenia return back to US already
7pm flight
didnt manage to meet her before her flight due to the packed schedule
so yea
kinda affected by it cause wont be seeing her for some time already
maybe she come back on August for 4 days can meet
well i hope can =)
take care my dear buddy

MST ended, SONG sia
Results will kill me soon

tmr going ECP to help Louisa with her CCA stuffs; Summer joining too
some school cca stuff, not sure what it is, hope its going to be fun yea

Life without Mobile is so insecured
well wont be getting one soon
due to some reasons
hope can get someone to borrow me their unused old mobiles, Sony Ericsson i hope =P

well guess my injured ankle and knee are ageing damn fast since they get more and more useless
nvm, weak bones since young so bo bian

well sometimes i wish whatever i said will be heard and understood
no point explaining and pinning hopes, otherwise
sometimes being out feels so much better
thanks Jol.

Some things sweet; some things bitter.

WELL SHORT OR CURLS?!?!?!?!

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well im still irritated by the fact exams are NOW?!
wtf.
Eugenia is back and i cant go out with her
really damn .....
though Monday she came SP to meet me after my test, we had to study since her motive was to make me sit down and study
well it worked, as usual cause she knows what im like since we are each other's first and longest friend since 1st day of TKSS =)
maybe Dec then she will be back, hope so cause 6 mths is already kinda long lehs, i dont want to wait
Hong Kong! we decided to go HONGKONG for holiday heex
but lets see if will work out first?

flunked every single module i took, as expected
2 more to flunk
yay

Athletics memories are coming back in pieces
some things are just impossible

FRIDAY IS APPROACHING
YAYNESS

Dad will be back on 1July
looking forward
as long as there's peace.

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Still studying...
2 more chapters....
even finish also nothing goes in ba, heavy headed
well at least my headaches getting lesser
maybe the so called virus are retreating?
LOL
soon i will be living without headaches
woooots

Blog hopping occassionally and it was sometimes interesting as usual
well i found out smth
Broken

tired
lucky got Jolene and Jundong who are still studying MICE with me
well Jolene and i are still stuck at same situation
Jundong as usual, helper for my retarded questions on my modules
LOL
guess i getting dumber since i entered poly
wonder why

Sians Sians Sians

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well its 2.19 am now and im still alive!!
later got exam but still cant finish man, tired le come here talk crap
well own self to blame for all these
as usual
mm i guess i will fail badly
argggggg
after this im gonna go PIG
cause its more enjoyable yea
well wonder today is the number what day i have been alive with headache since that time i got admitted in Hosp
mm used to having headaches all the time now le
but i WANT IT TO END!
what the
damn irritating
sometimes heavy sometimes light, PMS la PMS

mm wonder why as the days goes by i sense more "mean-ness"
damn suck la but bo bian?
ahhh wonder what lies behind those senteces.
hope its nothing bad
had enough of those cycles
so yea

Eugenia Woen is meeting me after FMAH later
i can like finally like see her!
before she flies off again............
but we are gonna study
what a turn off
but nevermind, she coming to ensure i sit down and STUDY
wooots wonder if School library will be a condusive environment la
since i dont really like going to libraries cause i cant TALK much~

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O, Jung Ban Hap - TVfXQ (remix live)



well this is damn blur can, guess i downloaded a damn clear version 1 year back using clubbox
ITS DAMN NICE!!!
Yay love them love them
watched a lot other videos, damn nice also wooots

Tmr is FMAH exam at Noon
well im still stuck trying to UNDERSTAND it for the 1st time
relax abit then can have dinner liaos then back to FMAH
wah i can imagine i get back my results and fail all 5 of them can
later is those less than 20 marks fail i peng la
got less than that before la
wonder why since poly my grades drop so much so much even though last time already damn suck

meeting Eugenia tomorrow at Dover!! she coming to SP sia wooots
but have to wait 1 hour before she comes since my exams end at 1pm and she coming at 2pm
sians la, school nothing to do one also
nvm can see her, before she return back to US in about a week time
arggg stupid exams
wrong timing

well feeling kinda empty and sians now
for some retarded reasons

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Exams are just tomorrow
well guess im going to do badly, again.....
distractions, too many distractions

sometimes its best to learn when to shut up i guess

though i've somehow made a decision between the two, i guess its sorta meaningless now
either choice also will end up with -ve results.
well guess i was wrong to have thought things will be going on fine once i've made up my mind
it just became worst

stop and move on.

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HA
cant help but laugh at myself for being so weak and dumb.


Baby One More Time - Jewelry


well love the MV, too bad two of the prettier singers were changed
so now Jewelry looks like this
the lady with the second shortest hair is damn HOT!!!
love her hair man
wooots
short hair rocks!!!

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Yday was the last day of the bet

20June2008

KianYou won S$5 from Timothy and S$20 from me
he is RICH liaos la!!!!
oh wow, damn sians la, i gained instead of lost
cheeeeken la....
well i shall jia you to Jian then, but doubt will work
NEVERMIND

went urban-ed with Jolene, Timothy, Jabez and Aaron
supposed to meet the other skaters but couldnt find them so nvm ba
was FUN, at least more stable le though still .....
LOL
hope one day can go down SB Hill alone, my AMBITION!
oh well it had been that since the first urban trip but still too NOOB la

Urban-ed to Clementi for supper and it was kinda a GOSSIP session
LOL
oh well, politics huh
who knows out there who is gossiping behind my back but pretending to friend me in person
well, sadded ahhh so hope dont have
LOL

well for now, Mistral and Parallel or Hockey ba
im slow and it is so demoralizing

and YAY i can finally go down that small slope at shelter again le
after i had twisted my knee there
oh well, it was easy but just phobia ba
YAY!!!!!!! thanks Jolene~

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sent Yunting off today at T1 with Rachel and many of her other friends
at least half i know since from TKSS
Rachel, YunYun, Martin, Yanyu, Russel and another random ex TKsian.
Hendy too but he was not from TK
Rachel and i didnt felt the impact even until now, we predict tmr or smth we will be affected
well we were shocked we two were kinda emo about it yday and Rachel complaint why didnt i call her and we can emo together
LOL
well i did wanted to sms her but i thought maybe i shouldnt since i was in public places

Rachel and i set off to find fooood!!!
as usual since i was hungry and Rachel had to accompany me to EAT!
had Crystal Jade snacks and Breeks
NICEEEEEEE
oh well sinful toooooo
and we decided we should lose weight together after exams~
YAY~
settled at Coffee Bean to study but i slept as soon as i sat down until leg numbed
see Rach and i couldnt help but chat with her and we ended up CHATTING
as usual
soon Jolene came and we chat even moreeeee
well guess i chatted the most since they dont really know each other but it was fun laaaa
Rachel was dumb enough to forgot to bring her tution stuffs so she left early
Jolene and i continued our chats and changed to Aljunied to have dinner
welll i ate her left overs
as usual since it was there and it was tempting
LOL
and we have PLANS!
oh yea PLANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lalalalala
okays im tired and i didnt studied today i guess
read few lines from BLAW notes, bo use man, bo useeee

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Suddenly i realized you are leaving
those emotions just came suddenly
as usual

this is the 6th time, i thought im used to it
guess i was wrong again.
its always happening
guess this is the bad thing about having most of your close friends from foreign countries...
it would be better if they are coming back after their studies but the reality is
most of them arent
and some arent even gonna come back once in a while once they leave
each have their own reasons
sending you buddies off each times makes me wonder why am i stuck here
things will change and can we still remain in contact?
you people are my close friends whom i sorta grew up with
since you all are mostly older, most of the time you all will help me with things
making me kinda dependent
having you all leaving me one by one reallly makes me
feel really lonely and helpless at times
maybe thats why most say i've toned down a lot
im not sure
well lucky there's such thing as MSN and SMS so i can still stay in contact with you people once in a while
but it still doesnt feel as good as having you all around me like in the past
those memories.... wooots
everyone grows up
maybe i should and stop being so dependent..........

well may your flight to Taiwan be safe
and your journey in NewZealand be smooth sailing
ohh well guess im gonna malu again tmr
as usual
ahhhh so many things but so little time
how i wish you need not leave but its already decided
so yea, all the best~


well had a busy day yday
morning FMAH extra lecture
after that bugis with Summer, Louisa and Emily
before i meet Aaron and Jabez to buy wheels
damn retarded trip, as usual
but funny la
then slacked at Aaron's house
nice la is house got so many facilities siaaaa
then left with Jabez to meet Timothy they all for dinner
bought my SHOES, like FINALLY
Dinner was nice, first time go out with them like this
Jolene, Shiying, Timothy, Medwin, ZhiWei, Eugene, Jason, Jabez and Man Man
left home aftermath and suddenly felt sians at the busstop
realized my darling Yunting is leaving le......

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Feels like a raindrop on my skin
you reaching somewhere deep within
you make my body come alive
ya bring me ur love

I whisper things you never knew
i can't believe that tonight i'm here with you
you make my body come alive
ya bring me ur love

Feels like a raindrop on my skin
you reaching somewhere deep within
you make my body come alive
ya bring me ur love

I whisper things you never knew
i can't believe that tonight i'm here with you
you make my body come alive
ya bring me ur love

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Expect nothing and there will be no disappointments, no heartbreaks.

forget all those memories when you have tried so much
stop waiting since it doesnt help
stop finding excuses cause it doesnt matter, the end result wont change

Accept not expect
i thought thats what Friends meant

i guess the #Boxers&Bras. XXX. symbol is not needed now.
yah

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Break camp on Sunday and went str. to help Yunting with her packing of luggage after Fathers' Day dinner.
kinda rushy
didnt really helped Yunting much since i fell asleep after helping her with her clothes and some CDs + books packing.
woke up at 4am and she wanted to sleep so we both slept til the next morn and left

Camp was kinda boring and felt useless for some reasons
some parts were fun =)
Jolene and i were facils for our group call KKK
damn not high since i wasnt feeling well and we were kinda pissed by this girl in our team
had to wear this red clothe over our faces, damn hot sia
Timothy didnt wear la... Z.z
really damn grateful to those who helped me when i wasnt feeling well =)
and those letters in the letter box were damn funny esp that green wax strip, wonder who threw it in =.=

Dad's leaving for China now, again
damn sudden la
guess have been too busy recently so times seems to past by damn fast
Wed my grandparents will be returning back to Malaysia
Thurs will be Yunting's turn for her trip back to Taiwan and then she will be off to New Zealand for her studies shortly after that, will miss her loads
well guess im used to all these leavings and stuffs, its always happening
hope all their trips will be safe and enjoyable
those who left already are doing kinda well
well now i have Clarissa, Chunyin and Rachel left with me in Spore from out of my Besties from TKSS
Chunyin will be leaving soon too, after her JC.
what's worst, those who left or going to leave wont come back since they all dont belong to Spore in the first place, kinda sad but thats life and i can only accept that?
lucky we have advanced technologies now
heex.

well, i meant what i said but it wasnt in a -ve tone you thought it was
its true some things once you lost it you can never get it back, its unpleasant to the ears but yea
its a fact
you may not feel it now but what about the future?
many had offered their help since you are too young to handle it alone, many people are concerned about you
you can come to us whenever you have any prob.
well cousin/friend, please consider wisely.

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oh man good things doesnt last
guess i've got this message in now
aunt deleted everything i wanted to save from it when i was in hosp
so yea
its all gone now
whats left its just the useless half dead outer case
i dont even feel like using it now
since the only 2 reasons for me to use it are already gone
and its almost spoilt
guess i will really save up for a new one then
was kinda shocked and sians when i heard about it
but it wasnt as bad as the past
maybe slowly i've moved on
just a bit more to go....

#Boxers&Bras. Yol.

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Class outing, DTRM'03 today at Clarke Quay!!!
had dinner at Iguana and Desserts at eh some damn nice cake shop which i forgot the name
spent loads but was fun yea =)
13 of us were there

Dawn, Shane, Genevive, Aloysius, Jun Dong, Sally, Jia Hong, Zeng Kai, Jolene, Emily, Louisa, Summer and ME!

wahaha
nice experience
had a damn nice Cheeze cake to celebrate Gen's birthday

Dawn, Shane, Aloysius, Emily, Summer and Louisa stayed for ladies night at MOS aftermath
whereas the rest of us left
since some underaged and stuffs

tmr got to make passport, oh man damn early la
hope there's no queue
wooots

#Boxers&Bras. Yol.

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finally im discharged from Hospital

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sometimes i wonder is it cause you are alone then you come by

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kinda terrible day yesterday, what the

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Suddenly i realise you are leaving
again
this time its coming real soon
maybe we wont even have time to meet up and stuffs
due to the fact our schedule cant match
another one leaving
oh man why is life always like this
i thought it should have its limits?
since its already decided
hope your life will be smooth there ba
at least better now =)
maybe poly just sucks
or
we just cant get used to it
or
its just cause we are all alone since we left TKSS

will miss you......

#Boxers&Bras. Yol.

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Happy Birthday to Rachel =)
sweet 18th hope everything will go well and smoothly for you
and the card
LOL


Eugenia is leaving for Italy soon and will back again for another week or so then back to US
will miss her as usual

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