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Anything for a complexion like this; yea Any thing

Boa's expanding her career towards America with her new album next month.
TVfXQ is back today with 4th Korean album; Britney Spears will be coming back with her new album around end of this year. they are all coming back and its at one go non-stop
hopefully they make it big : )
listening to their songs and watching their MVs can just make my day : )

back to sec3 going to sec4 period eh? Maybe, just different characters involved now. i succeeed though it took me around 1.5 years in total, loooooong eh.
but i have to succeed this time too : D

now i really think the thin string that hold people together are so thin that it can get stretched and snap without a single notice, even though it may seem strong just a second ago; usually its beyond repair after it snaps.
sad isnt it? but thats reality
haaaa

Japan trip is nearing, this means my "vacation" is coming. im so glad im only going with my mum, she knows me so well though she says nothing, i think she can tolerate me then. hopefully she enjoys herself during the trip too and get better since her health isnt that good recently, well maybe for quite long already.
i wonder what is it really like there, since i've been having very high expectations of there.

yesterday i had a dream;
i dreamt i was spectating a track and field competition at a huge stadium filled with cheers from the large crowd. it was just like any other Nationals held yearly at CCK stadium, but i wasnt at CCK stadium. it was so unfamiliar, except for the cheers and track.
it was a 400m hurdle race, and i didnt feel like watching. just like what it would be in reality.
however i noticed someone familiar on the track with the same number tag sticked to her fbt shorts; as usual she was pale looking; she was nervous, very nervous.
it started to drizzle......
the gun started the race and every competitor was running and overcoming those hurdles, so was she.
but her pace got slower and slower
she fell suddenly and was in pain half way throught the race
she was crying so badly
over something she cant face, even up till now.
how pathetic
i could hear similar voices blaming her over her fall due to disappointment and a small little voice trying to defend her helplessly due to the fact she couldnt say much to adhere to her promise
voices heard but familiar faces couldnt be found in the huge crowd
well they cant be blamed cause they didnt know anything....

well it ended abruptly and i woke up in cold sweat just in time for swimming at Sai's house with Summer : )

yea its just a dream; it was just random past events that happened which became another story together. after years.......... its still there
wtf. just get away totally

sleeping time now and i miss the small little voice : (

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time passes by so quickly without warning; things come and go without warnings too
changes constantly revolves around us; reasons to it can be known or unknown
well one thing that is fixed is that those involved definitely have responsibility; big or small towards the whole matter

well, time heals
but it always wash away those links and closeness

courage, its often needed more to climb over new obstacles
just like we need more new skills to get on to the next level in a game
never ending

but if we believe i still think we can succeed
but how long can i motivate myself; im not sure
i see it getting shorter and shorter
now its bleak..........

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Mirotic - TVfXQ

Nobody - Wondergirls

NICE new song. lalalalala...
lyrics given so can understand : )

had a shopping spree at marine parade, after so long im finally back there
bought so many stuffs!!!!
well thanks to my walking ATM - Mum
thanks ehh haha

temper has resided but well what to do next?
i dont know, maybe it was nothing but just my temper
but who know
maybe it doesnt even matter
except to me.

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which means its has everything i want except some appearance flaws : P

HTC Diamond is freaking CHIO! and its damn small la, screeen huge and visuals damn good BUT its damn BLACK, LAGGY and very NOT finger print proof

iTouch is slim, sleak, touch screen, Wii like game function, MP3 player, white BUT it doesnt have a phone function and i have a PSP already; its somewhat similar to PSP la, functions wise is general

iPhone is everything a iTouch has but its fat, laggy and damnit EXpensive

Nano-Chromatic is small, COLOURFUL, cool, slim, good visuals and cute BUT its just a simple mp3, more improved so like abit not that pulled to it? but its still cool la

okays im like wasting money.

so far im either getting a iPhone so everything will be packed in one; which means spoil also spoil together
or
W980 + iTouch/Nano-Chromatic

who knows what the end result may be
LOL

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我的快樂

its a nice song, esp in the lovely drama
well the chorus......

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something circular that goes round and round according to your movements
the faster you go the faster it spins; when you stop, it gradually stops and drop.

things continue to happen due to constant motions;
ends when the pushing motions stops
in order to keep it going and going and going;
we have to keep pushing and pushing
but have you thought that its always the same cycle? no matter the speed; the height; the place
its still the same cycle?

Hoo-La-Hoop is a good form of exercise to slim down, especially the waist area but its proven that after one has gotten used to the motions, the slimming effect doesnt takes place anymore.
one has to try harder and longer to get the slimming effect desired
or one can get a new hoop that needs a different motion

yup; under the same cycle of the same repetitions, one gets used to the situation
for improvements big or small, one has to try harder and sometimes longer
in order to totally get out, one has to let it go
and stop lying to oneself there is still that tiny bit of hope

cause hope is nothing but

hope.

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looking at my wrist now, i only see a black rubber band

it used to have a companion of a shiny green and a bright orange rubber band with it
the green one was too worn out so i threw it and added the bright orange one
a week back
the orange one i gave it to my mum to let it hold the doors of the shoe cupboard outside
well mum was shocked but i just told her to take it
rubber bands i once loved and treasured so much; i discarded them away
blackie is left. seems like it could last the longest
well maybe black is the best for me ba : )

maybe i loved them too much and tired them so they got worn out
just like some things and some people, the more concern and care you give them
the more they wear out or want to leave



getting a new rubber band? im not sure
but im sure im getting new head bands

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Sai came early in the morn to bake cookies with me. it was a MESS!
expected la, but it was FUN just tiring and it was damn Z.z to keep cleaning up and staying so damn loooooong in the kitchen
first 2 tries had some burnt cookies but it got better after that: )
Summer reached and helped us with the 3rd set onwards
did nail art for Sai and Summer. woooo la la~
what a sweet day; filled with cookies smell
okays that is so not us! agreeable by the 3 cookie makers of the day
LOL

now i know how much sugar and choco those cookies outside contains
its DAMN A LOT. i really mean A LOT!

finally i started learning my fast wheel yesterday! thanks to KC and Jeremy~ weeeeeee
finally im learning the slide that made me decide to learn sliding : ) after this i shall move to try parallel!! wooo then i shall complete my small little wishes

okays i shall go have my cookies.. its not bad though not very nice~

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weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i cant wait; cant wait for the pay and to get out of the daily routine of tiredness
those black shoes are killing me too, though i wore socks and places those shoe cushions already
imagine if my mum didnt get them for me, i think i would have died!
too bad, who ask my feet' skin so thin Z.z

im gonna get my snake-skin-look-a-like Grey heels from Charles and Keith! its so darn nice! the others that looked like oxford heels are abit too over since i dont have those clothes to match. next time ba.
OH MAN ankle and knee get well soon so i can wear them
my curls are settling abit down already; im glad : )

HEAD BANDS! okays im so in lorve with them now!!! cause of my darling curls la; need to tone them down with it so yea im in lorve with them currently. last time hair too flat wear like freak o.0 shall get more, hopefully from JAPAN~

oh well just burst out all part of my anger after keeping them for nearly 2 years. seriously, i cannot take it, i dont even know how i have bear with it for so long man. wtf. its killing my health so i shall just END it. emo dude, GROW up please. you older and a guy please use your slow brain and think. she has already moved on so much, its your turn and im not a machine for you to vent all the time. i really think things have come too far or maybe its just my recent foul mood but well who cares. i already said whatever thinkings i have and its up to you to take it or not. GROW up and stop behaving like a childish immatured girl over her again.

maybe thats why im damnit scared of emo people.
you listen to them vent, mostly move on but there are some who doesnt~

maybe im evil but i've had enough and i barely know you as a friend
either you get it or you dont

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life's tiring and moving on fast since holiday; now its all about

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Utterly Disappointing; nothing else
Friends?

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Maybe just not meant to be.

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finally booked the tickets : ) so my get away is CONFIRMED!

went with parents to check out the tours and settled on a 7 days JA-PUN trip with my darling DISNEYLAND in it!!! TOKYOOOOOOOOOOO

i prefer Disney Sea though cause got the breath taking underwater creatures and my beloved Mermaid that only appears in fairytales; but its not that worth it so chose Disney Land

didnt intend to use the laptop today at all but need to get the draft i wrote, for tomorrow to write down physically, so yea here i am, in front of this dead box

Meeting Rachel tomorrow to let her sign the card and accompany her study for her As! damn long never see her already so im damn HAR-PIE!! and she can finally see my FUGLY PERMS :P

waaa i see the card i feel emo man, so NOT PRETTY; okays la, its just that it looks kinda empty somewhere and they dont seem to CLIQUE~ ahh i shall just tell myself its the THOUGHTS that counts bahaha~ tmr let Rachel sign and i can do all the final touch up : )

my Nails are in Metalic Blue now, its so KEWL!! nail mad as usual... my dad told me to go take up those 1 day lesson to learn nail art; damn shocked but well i guess my mum told him and he finally understood. well that simple sentence made my day; so did the JA-PUN trip he allowed me to go with Mum. somehow its the correct time also
during dinner at Swensens mum asked me why i didnt sleep last night and continued to say my lips are damn damn "bruised" from biting; before i could reply she just ask what happened? i think you are sick oh no is depressed. im like WOW?! im no psychotic can and i WONT allow myself to become that=.= but im damn delighted to get her and my dad's concern : )

they are doing so much sweet little things though i didnt said a thing <3<3

the day is reaching ; the day when i give up trying.

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Saturday, September 6, 2008

1/2 more to go and im DONE!
oh well im not sure if they will be appreciated
hopefully it will be; since i suppose its the last thing i will do before "stepping out" of it
please dont make it into something Negative in the end


hard work pays off; i hope its abosolutely true here

tada~

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Sis finally skated in SP. well seems like she finally decided to start learning how to skate.
but sadly she fell and her knee bleed so she couldnt really skate much too
well guess she is really damn scared of pain LOL...
so sweet of those skaters who came to ask how was she when i was trying to "plaster" her bleeding wound LOL
well sister, you need to be more "STRONG"
LOL
well think i sprained my thumb from falling and its like pig hand now
Z.z


the day its given shall be the day i start to forget :

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Friday, September 5, 2008

so what if i tried? so what if i try? so what if i really tried to try?

so what.. so what???
maybe it all lies in the inability to reject
just cause unpredicted events cropped up, it doesnt mattered if i tried.
well does it matter? to anyone no matter if i tried or not it all comes down to i didnt try a single fuck. it all comes down to me being a indifferent person to others or im just purely selfish.
yea im selfish cause i cant think well like a normal person does, thats why im always called a retard
it comes with a reason : )



well maybe its best i dont even try.
but you know, this is the first time i didnt get so diasppointed or upset or angry that you were late?
cause i wasnt alone, so i wont feel scared of that, that terrible thing.
ya THAT.

自己没有那个能力 就不要去做自己不在行的事

让大家都不开心
even that picture was changed

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sometimes people are too close

little things get complicated

feelings are hurt, many unneeded thoughts run through little minds

when old wounds heal; new ones appear

soon the hurt gets lesser and lesser; maybe they are used to it, maybe otherwise

well i wonder...............

will it ever stop?

i didnt know simplicity is so hard to achieve here.

P.S. i love those pictures

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Thursday, September 4, 2008

so fast; 2 weeks of holiday is going to just pass by
busy days spent
: )

自己良心过于得去就好了

non stop repetition of the same things makes feeling numb

minor things can have a strong effect or no effect at all

it all depends if its -ve or +ve

lying and pushing things further wont help change the fact things have already changed

some things once changed; no matter what you try to do

it just wont happen

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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

man faces many things everyday; no matter good or bad; no matter big or small
they may be obstacles to guide us through us through in life; lessons that help us grow up; it varies to everyone, based on each one's perception
usually people around each individual are affected in a way or another, especially close ones
we are all somewhat interlinked; i guess?

i've heard before:
trying your best and strive with all your heart and efforts will change things; making things better
im asking really?

people who do evil deeds will get any sort of punishments; big or small
really?

those who suffers but still struggles to overcome their obstacles will see their fruits of labour in the end
does it really applies to all?

husbands and wives should bear with each other to ensure happiness
arent human fickle minded?

... there are so many others but i cant; cant here

i've known her for years; we dont share much secret but there is a special bonding between us.
we know we care a lot for each other though we seldom say it
she is more experienced in life than i am; but no doubt as retarded as i am
she is the only one who can tahan telling me her problems without the need of me to reply to her at all; all i need to do is just to be there to let her yak about her problems that she wishes to say;
she knows im always listening, but she doesnt knows im affected
she is easily contented and always being "bullied"
she doesnt has much power in making her stand and getting what she deserves
little things can make her think a lot; but she wont show she is worried, she just flares up
she is always giving in to her love but she doesnt get back what she deserves; but she has no choice
she is a stronger person now being through so much; but how many knows and understand the pain and helplessness she has been through all these years?
she's always trying to give in though she is tired and angry; but they dont even give a fuck
to her now many happiness is just short termed and she will occassionally remind me not to be too easily fooled; everyone changes, usuaally what doesnt change are those unpleasant stuffs
she wishes to run away but in order not to burden those she dearly cares, she chose to stay, she chose to bear with it
she doesnt look as cheerful and radiant as what she used to be like; she has aged, aged too fast
she always joked about flying all over the places in 10 years time, leaving everything behind. i guess she really wish to

we wished each other will be happy
listening to her over the years made me realized some of my fears came from there unknowingly.
if only i am stronger and matured; if only i can really help you
other than just listening

if only i was there just now; you wont even suffer some thing so "weird" as hunger
you might feel cause you wont be so alone.

when will all these change for the better?
it seems like never

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Monday, September 1, 2008

Bugis Junction + Arab Street + Haji Lane + Mustafa + Emily + Sai + Me = SHOPPING SPREE!!!
*okays la; also never buy much stuffs*
tired from travelling so much but bought those CHEAP stuffs. Haji Lane is the only NICE place ba. going back tomorrow to get a present! sadly, its kinda expensive there BUT, the shops are damn nicely and uniquely designed : )
shall try get more money and go back there again for OWN stuffs!!

Turquoise&Blue <3

Cleocat stocks arrived and its so DISAPPOINTING!!!! its like kinda deformed until it doesnt look like the picture the website showed. yea expected it but not to this extend~ too big a risk i took eh

what is going on; i wonder. . .

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